"that you may walk worthy of the Lord"

Sunday, April 26, 2009

hello dear friends of mine.

I'm sorry if i keep talking about boring army. so yes i decided to relieve my lovely childhood memories instead.

anticipate the moment coming...

this is me when i was young!

WASN'T I SO ADORABLE?

don't know what happened along the way :D oh well.

I really miss my traditional chinese costume. and my 3 hour long chinese tuitions. Think it's time to change my dressing style. Dressing like a regular teen is so boring. Polo tees and jeans and whatnot. I'll go to Chinatown soon to get myself some new clothes!

Anyway enough digressing. back to army. really need to complain. can you believe there aren't any taxis in my camp?? how absurd is that? talk about human rights. I think I deserve every right to relish in the luxury of flagging a taxi down. A great friend of mine who used to work at NUH suggested that I go for rehab, but I think my addiction to taxis is totally normal. Especially from Jelita back to my place, CONFIRM must take taxi. After all, i dont get to book out often enough for great occasions like that. and don't you think anyone would just totally die from walking that looong distance in the blazing sun? precisely.

so yes. before I go to sleep, I'll make some mental notes to myself.

1) don't nag at my friends so much. yeah I've been much of a nag these days, hoping my unemployed friends will go looking for jobs soon. Come to think of it, jobs are boring. If people are taking gap years, they should definitely spend it bumming around (:

2) don't think about the super expensive onitsuka tiger shoes which i constantly crave for.

3) go for rehab.

4) feed scratch more. he does look kinda anoerexic. oh yeah and i should stop feeding it pedigree too :D

okay I'm done! off to sleep. good night and remember to turn off your lights!

- 12:18 AM

Saturday, April 25, 2009

field camp is ......

ownage.

i'm beyond shagged. im practically dying now.

and yet being the idiot i am, i'm going to go running now. lol

brb

- 10:21 AM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

ippt gold

you don't know how much that means to me.

when i said it was more about money than pride, i think i lied. its about so much more than the money.

ever since primary 3, i've always had difficulty with pull ups. yes even inclined pullups. i just somehow had weak arms which could never lift my body above that confounded bar.

so yeah the problem continued throughout jc and i just somehow scrapped through napfa enough to ensure i didnt have to serve extra time in army.

so yes when i came into army, i became what was known as a zero fighter. after having to do pullups twice or thrice a day, when the first ippt came, i could do 0 pullups.

embarrassing for a softball captain.

so yes for the whole of bmt, i had to endure the humiliation of failing ippt cause of pullups even though i got gold standard for everything else.

so finally on the last try, i pulled through with a pass and 7 pull ups.

each ippt, i kept on missing my desired grade by one pull up.

5 pull ups, miss pass by one
7 pull ups, miss silver by one
9 pull ups, miss gold by one.

so thats the life story about my pull ups.

untill yesterday, finally

11 pull ups.

heh ftw.

254
45
9.4
11
9.24

okay so whats the purpose of this blog post?

no it isn't to brag about the fact i finally got my gold.

but more to remind myself of a lesson i always told myself when i saw people doing pull ups with the half-standard of not crossing the bar or not extending your arms.

don't cheat yourself. integrity jem, integrity

so i'm proud enough to say that i achieved my gold doing my pullups properly, not through my own strength but through the strength of God.

thank you Lord.

- 1:20 AM

Friday, April 10, 2009

im just confused at the moment.

so yeah. thanks.

- 12:58 AM

Thursday, April 09, 2009

weird =\

good friday.

- 11:31 PM

Saturday, April 04, 2009

throughout my school life i've really been blessed beyond measure.

the Lord has been really good to me and He gave me things i really didnt deserve.

when people look at me, they think:

oh thats jem, the one who topped so and so subject.
oh thats jem, the one who is softball captain
oh thats jem, the one who can run 9.30 for 2.4
oh thats jem, the one who got into so and so uni.

to be honest my jc life was nothing short of perfect. i really couldn't have asked for much more.

but one thing that doesn't come to mind when people think of me is oh thats jem, the christian.

my life has been a terrible testimony thus far. i guess its been a mixture of the influence around me, my lack of faith and my terrible self discipline.

so this year my resolution has to been to be a good testimony for Him wherever i go.

and i must say i failed miserably during bmt.

so after that i told myself i'll be a much better person wherever i get posted to and be a shining example for Him.

and thats what I've been trying to do.

but now once again i'm in that situation where i'm finding it hard to believe in Him and His plan for me.

its easy to trust when things are all mighty fine and going your way.

but once again the challenge comes when things come crashing down and nothing goes according to plan.

its easy to say how good God has been to you. but once things fall apart, it really is a different story. you wonder why God is doing such stuff to you and you start to blame and question Him.

i remember how i used to say i'd be willing to trade all He has given me to be a better christian and a shining example for Him. just like some of the people in school who from one glance appear to be a perfect role model christian, living the faith and serving Him.

so now i'm wondering if thats what God wants to tell me.

- 11:56 PM

so i've just been wondering about the future.

yes i know so has everyone else

and i havent been able to reach any form of conclusion.

i'm trusting in You once again, but i'm having trouble.

and maybe i don't wanna go

- 2:35 PM