our God is far greater, than words can make known.
exalted and holy, He reigns from His throne.
in infinite splendor He rules over all.
yet He feeds the poor sparrows, and He knows when they fall.
His power is great, and will ever endure.
His wisdom is peaceable, gentle and pure.
but greater than all of these glories i've seen,
is the gloriest promise, that He cares for me.
whatwhowhereyou.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
You know how irritating it is whenever you do this?
How much does our friendship mean to you?
Does it even mean anything?
This is taking a huge toil on my emotions.
I don't know about you.
- 11:33 PM
I. am tired.
Slept at 2am last night cause I banged my head against a wall and couldn't sleep for the next half an hour.
Woke up at 6am and went to school to meet ernest. The two of us ran 20 rounds together as punishment. I was so unbelievably tired after that i almost died.
thanks a lot ernest for running the extra 5 laps with me. i know it was a stupid idea but i felt i had to do. i really appreciate you running even though your legs hurt.
training was a killer after that. i barely had enough energy to do anything.
and thats my entire day summed up. i'm going to play cm0304/cs/sticksoldiers2/read a book/ go and get a well deserved rest now.
or maybe not.
- 3:35 PM
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
You speak to me I know this will be temporary You ask to leave, but I can tell you that I've had enough
I can't take it This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough to make it and if you're so strong you might as well just do it alone And I'll watch you go
Step up to me I know that you've got something buried I'll set you free You set conditions, but I've had enough
I can't take it This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough to make it and if you're so strong you might as well just do it alone And I'll watch you go
Come back home, won't you come back home? You step in line, you got a lot to prove It comes and goes Yeah, it comes and goes A step in time, yeah it's a lot to move I know this will be temporary I know this will be temporary I know this will be, but I've had enough
I can't take it This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough to make it and if you're so strong you might as well just do it alone And I'll watch you go
I can't take it This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough to make it and if you're so strong you might as well just do it alone And I'll watch you go
- 11:55 PM
Monday, November 27, 2006
- 10:52 PM
i think i screwed up really badly today.
i'm sorry if i let the team down.
- 8:32 PM
Friday, November 24, 2006
the first part of this post was written in france.
so the plane ride wasn't a killer. left singapore at around midnight and it was a 12 hour flight to france.
i reached france in the early morning before the sun rose. the view from the plane was awesome. i saw a giant see of orange from the window. kind of like singapore, just that it stretched so much further
guess what the first meal i had in france was?
macs. yes i travelled halfway round the world to eat macs.
stupid or stüpid?
stupid.
first day was spent sightseeing. what sights did i see? good question. basically the usual stuff.
the most important sigh was the eiffel tower.
the view from the eiffel tower at night was........
i don't know how to describe it. the word breathtaking won't do the view justice.
well it was raining at night so when i reached the top of the tower it was freezing. and when i say freezing i mean freezing. my fingers were numb.
and yes the view was great.
i found out that man utd lost to celtic on the french tv and man was i pissed.
second day.
well more sightseeing. woke up at 12pm cause i was just so tired. slept approximately 15 hours.
went to the lourve to see the mona lisa. france is a great place to be under 17 cause you're considered a child and tickets to museums are free .
don't know whats the big fuss about the mona lisa. i mean honestly its just a painting in a glass box. so her smile is mysterious and her eyes appear to follow you. but whats the big deal? so maybe im not some art lover.
went to the moulin rogue at night.
piece of advice to anyone who has never been there:
dont go.
its basically a porn show under the guise of arts.
its nothing like in the movie. the place is much smaller and its no where near as grand.
it would definately have been banned in singapore.
its entertaining but not worthwhile for the price
third day.
basically spent sightseeing as well. sounds boring doesnt it?
went chinatown as well. the food sucked seriously. chinese food in france is just horrid. made me miss singapore even more.
the rest of this post was/will be written back home
fourth day.
this was my day of freedom. i got to wander around paris on my own. yes one singaporean kid with an ipod and a red crumpler walking up and down the streets of paris.
so the day kind of went like this
7.30-8.30am: sat at the hotel using the free internet to check my mail
8.30-9.30am: walked to a nearby cafe and drank hot chocolate, read a book and watched the world pass me day.
9.30 to 12ish: shopping. went to the shopping district with all the departmental stores and basically window shopped. everything was too expensive for my liking but i was so desperate to buy something that i ended up payinbg 25 euros for a billabong shirt.
don't remind me.
had lunch on my own before heading to another shopping district where i looked at the sports shops. picked up a pair of soccer socks for the fun of it.
the adidas shop had this superbly nice pair of soccer player gloves which they wear to keep their fingers warm. IT WAS SO NICE. i wanted to buy it but i realized it was a waste of money considering i would never use it and the only point in buying it was to act poser.
by 3 i was just so bored that i decided to go visit a museum.
originally i planned to visit this random museum so i took the metro from A to B. then at B i discovered that the museum had closed down so i went to another museum at A.
basically i wasted a lot of time travelling = the weather was rather horrid as it rained practically everyday. i was feeling hungry so i bought this nutella crepe (basically crepe with nutella filling) and it was so good. it left me with a nice, warm and fuzzy feeling while i walked along the rainy sidewalks.
didnt do anything else besides that.
Random comments on the food: i ate so many mussels over there. every single decent french restaurant serves mussels and its so good.
the french onion soup was really good as well. loads of cheese on it.
their french fries suck big time. the french don't eat them with salt so they are tasteless. really tasteless.
i personally felt the deserts kind of sucked as well. had much better french deserts here in singapore.
the french have this weird obsession with breast. all their meat is breast and its quite tasteless. someone introduce them to thighs.
the flight back to singapore sucked. got no sleep at all and i wasted my time watching really bad movies on the plane.
oh and i kept myself amused by listening to the high school musical soundtrack on the plane whilst laughing out really loudly at the stupid lyrics and reading my book. ITS SO GAY.
so here i am on my computer now, without sleep for the past 24 hours and im not sleepy.
weird isn't it?
note to self: had a lot of time to reflect about stuff on this trip. i came to this realization.
even though the french metro is filthy, full of grafitti, old and run down, at the very least the people have some sense of basic courtesy.
in singapore, our mrt is clean, fast, efficient, cheap and everything you could ask for,
yet the people are..... i shall refrain from furthur comment
i wanna play softball =)
i missed you.
- 7:10 PM
Monday, November 20, 2006
goodbye computer.
hello france =)
leaving for the airport soon.
till we meet again. see you soon
- 7:39 PM
the only thing in the world i want to do now is play softball =(
- 5:29 PM
rain outside my window
woke up at 7am today just to go for softball. i was pretty amazed i managed to drag myself up considering how much i slept last night. i was even contemplating reading a book and not sleeping at all but i was somehow persuaded/forced to try and get some sleep.
so anyway softball camp.
the first one hour in school was spent doing absolutely nothing. bummed around and talked trash with the team.
then the fun started. borrowed the shooting club's soccer ball and we played soccer. it was pretty fun and a great work out. ran up and down loads of time.
then coach came and the guys team went to do fence batting practice.
have blisters now as well as aching arms.
went to mad jack's for lunch, courtesy of mr tong. had fun watching some of the guys playing world cup 2006 on the xbox. the graphics are seriously imba. i want one too.
okay maybe not.
basically that sums up my entire morning/early afternoon.
took the 156 back home and then i packed. and i packed. and now i'm sitting here bored stiff.
i'm going to miss singapore.
i really wish i could have stayed for the entire softball camp.
but no i can't.
im going on a holiday =)
btw i'm bringing my handphone so if anyone is bored do drop a message. not that i'll reply you cause that would cost me 50cents.
hopefully i'll have some nice pictures to show when i come back.
random thought: for some unknown reason, i'm bringing my team njc softball shirt. can't bear to part with the team.
- 3:52 PM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
i'll be in a jetplane in a little over 24 hours.
i'm really thankful for this trip. i needed to call for a timeout.
one week without my com. no i won't miss it.
have fun over here.
FYI: Both the PS3 and the Nintendo Wii are out =D
food for thought
i love God i love my family
i love who or whom?
I'd Do Anything Simple Plan
Another day is going by I'm thinking about you all the time But you're out there And I'm here waiting
And I wrote this letter in my head Cause so many things were left unsaid But now you're gone And I can't think straight
This could be the one last chance To make you understand
I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Cause somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? Cause I know I won't forget you
Together we broke all the rules Dreaming of dropping out of school And leave this place To never come back
So now maybe after all these years If you miss me have no fear I'll be here I'll be waiting
This could be the one last chance to make you understand And I just can't let you leave me once again
I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Cause somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? Cause I know I won't forget you
I close my eyes And all I see is you I close my eyes I try to sleep I can't forget you Nanana (....) And I'd do anything for you Nanana (....)
I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Cause somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? Cause I know I won't forget you
I'd do anything To fall asleep with you I'd do anything There's nothing I won't do I'd do anything To fall asleep with you I'd do anything Cause I know I won't forget you
- 9:55 PM
i don't see why my life should revolve around your every whim and fancy.
respect has to be earnt not bought.
eat my shoe.
- 2:58 PM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
today, was spent playing pool in the afternoon with johnson, joel and pzr.
i really suck badly at pool. but hey its fun.
met colin and weiliang at taka and we had dinner together before we all headed to my house for another round of ssb, ctr and hearts.
i need to pack my bag and leave
- 1:40 AM
Thursday, November 16, 2006
jealousy,
is a horrid feeling.
I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long I've been guessing - and I could have been guessin' wrong You don't know me now I kinda thought that you should somehow Does that whole mad season get ya down
And now I'm cryin' - isn't that what you want? I'm tryin' to live my life on my own, But I won't can't
At times - I do believe I am strong So someone tell me, Why? why? why?
Do I, I, I. Feel stupid
And I come undone
I need you now
Do you think you can cope You figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless I'm bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken
well, I need you now
- 10:47 PM
after four days, its finally over.
cip has been one heck of a time. it was really great but physically and mentally exhausting.
kids are crazy. they're willing to pick themselves up everytime they fall and continue playing.
no fear.
i have been running on reserves for the past few days. totally out of energy.
was so tired today that i actually managed to sleep on the 961 to woodlands. i actually slept on the bus. amazing. never do that unless im totally exhausted.
anyway when we reached woodlands mrt, shenxiang woke me up and i quickly rushed off the bus. but i stepped on my ipod earphones and now there are loads of scratches on it.
^&*&*&&^%$$$#&^%$#%$^&*(^%$#^&*@!@#$%^&*
i was just wondering, would you have said the same stuff about me?
im just glad now that the Lord gave me friends who are willing to give me a slap across my face just to wake me up.
thank you so much.
- 8:52 PM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
there is nothing that brings more pleasure than seeing a child's genuine smile.
dear daddy, when i grow up, i wanna be just like you.
i wanna be big and strong.
i wanna be a teacher.
i wanna make a difference.
- 12:35 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
i hate someone real bad.
really bad.
- 10:14 PM
oh God, what have i done?
- 11:33 AM
so freaking hilarious.
- 12:45 AM
Monday, November 13, 2006
tired. very.
linhsheng stayed over to watch matches last night. but since i was so tired he ended up watching while i ended up sleeping.
softball training. bit hard to train with my freaking toe swollen. but i still did.
had to leave early to go for cip. at 11.15am, i was at the nj bus stop wondering how on earth i was going to reaching admirality mrt in half an hour. then the 171 came and my drama president was in there. => i was not late =)
after all late is a very relative term.
cip at evergreen primary school.
At the end of one day, i ended up so shagged out. its honestly worse than softball training.
trying to manage a group of primary 2 kids suxxors. never try it. they seem to have boundless amounts of energy while you don't.
the cip objective was to teach them english through drama or something like that. i have to admit it was really interesting and enjoyable.
interacting with the kids is really quite meaningful.
even though the kids were really naughty and two of them tried kissing me which was just gross. i really think girls mature much faster than boys., the girls were all so obedient and nice. the boys on the other hand is another story. they kept on screaming and yelling and hitting each other.
however the kids in my group were really nice.
well i'll be seing them tomorrow again. one more day to soak up alll the energy i have.
can't wait =)
- 7:44 PM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
i spent the last half an hour sitting on the floor of my shower reflecting.
yes the water was turned on.
yes i know its a freaking waste of water.
but more importantly i realized that my attitude really stinks
i learnt a valuable lesson today.
and i really hope i never forget it. cause i'd end up paying much more than a water bill if i do.
and after all of this,
i still can't bring myself to say "i'm sorry"
- 6:51 PM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
i think it has reached a point where i should cut this friendship.
goodbye.
i blocked you, deleted your number, cleared my inbox.
now tell me what else needs to be done.
- 12:01 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006
first and foremost happy birthday ben lee yijing.
finally 16.
just got back from the ip chalet and i must say im totally shagged
wednesday. woke up at 9.30am and realized i was one hour late for softball. damn. cabbed to school and basically i was really late. which kinda sucked. i shall not do that again to the best of my abilities.
took a bus with jiayi, kenneth and jiafang to kallang i believe and then a mrt to bedok to buy stuff for the chalet.
05ip05 owes me a lot of money now.
basically the day in the chalet was spent playing soccer. two goals again from me. both goals were entirely fluke though so i take no pride in scoring them.
bbq at night. loads of ip teachers came down. had loads of fun with mr wen and his soul.
wasted away my night playing mahjong and not really doing anything constructive.
day 2 ehrm i remember playing soccer in the 6 dollar an hour street soccer court. played like absolute crap. a game to forget despite it being the last ever soccer game of ip2.
however i shall choose to remember tony's uber uber good goal. contender for goal of the year. brilliance. sheer brilliance
spent the rest of the day watching random movies at 02 and trying to sleep but getting pwned by ernest.
cant really remember doing much but i know i had a pretty fun time just relaxing.
untill i saw reg with her A level math book =/
nightmare on elm's street changi coast walk.
had a goodnights sleep cause i stole the pillow and blanket and slept on a bed as hard as the floor. (plus not forgetting that i didnt get prodded by phong at night)
cabbed to school with reg, doris and ernest today. had to come back to fill up subject combi. and now im just totallyshaggedoutandtoolazytopressspacebar.
why is it people only feel emo at night when there is no one else around to talk to?
i think i'm having a panic attack now.
without the night, there would be no day.
for the day cannot exist without an opposite an equal force known as the night.
so whatever the night brings, it only serves to allow mankind to appreciate the beauty of day so much more
bleed you fool. bleed and die.
- 12:38 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006
what a day.
woke up at 8.30am and i realized how late i was for training. rushed to school in half an hour and i was basically late for training.
surprisingly i wasn't blasted or anything. but yeah my bad shouldn't have been late.
training was pretty fun today. the sun wasn't scorching so it wasn't so bad.
today, i got hit in the face by a softball. just to clear any misconceptions, a softball isn't soft. yeah so it hurt. a lot.
anyway i've learnt my lesson. never be complacent.
went to prince for lunch with the team then weiliang, joel and I headed to beach road to pick up some stuff.
waited 2 hours just for weiliang to update his passport. felt like stabbing the people at the counter. but then again i had such priceless companionship, the wait was worthwhile.
dear weiliang, if you ever read this, remember with a smile what great friends you have =D
since we waited so long, we decided to head to orchard for dinner. joel wanted pasta mania, weiliang wanted crystal jade. so they late me make the decision
moral dilema.
but anyway i chose crystal jade. the la mian was pretty decent. the beef was ownage. nice, tender and juicy.
after dinner we decided to go see the subaru challenge thingy. hats off to all the competitors. 55 hours and going strong.
i spent all my money buying stuff for others and nothing for myself. life ain't fair
now i'm suffering from a lack of sleep.
- 10:14 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
today for sunday school, my sunday school teacher told us about the parable of the sower.
i know i've heard this parable countless times before. but it really struck me hard today.
he said that out of our class of 10, only 2 would remain .
wow. barely even a quarter.
will i be in that 2? i don't know
anyway played soccer today with johnson, mr eng and mr eng's friends at NUS
absolute stunner of a game.
i scored my first ever brace. could have scored a hat trick but i missed my fair share of chances.
but two goals in a match. unbelievable
played a right back/ right midfield role supporting johnson. must say i played decently well. one or two assist to my name as well
i have discovered the true importance of chinese.
every single one of mr eng's friends spoke chinese.
crap i better not loose touch. time to brush up on my language.
sleepy.
and i'm not emo about the fact that i'm not longer an ip kid.
at least not yet.
- 10:25 PM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
training is exhausting.
had training on wednesday and thursday morning. pretty tiring. now my muscles are aching all over.
went out like everyday this entire week except for monday. hols havent been as boring as i had expected.
been playing quite a lot of pool and been patronizing marina far too often for my liking.
i think my pool is getting better.
my running has improved quite significantly. i believe i can hit break 10 now if i'm not sick/coughing really badly/ stupid haze causes the air quality to just suck eggs.
went out with jiayi, weiliang, jason and wilbert. caught the prestige at cine. the sound quality just sucked big time. something wrong with the speakers.
well either than that the movie was superb. honestly one of the best movies i have seen. the plot was just superb. well actually i was lost at certain points in the movie but hey it was GOOD. the twist was incredible.
i slept 3 hours last night. great work jem.
almost died during training today. had some major headache for a while till i took some panadol.
